It was 1997. I had a broken heart. A BROKEN heart. I had never experienced anything before like it, and actually have never experienced anything afterwards like it.
My soul mate and I had broken up. We were done...finished. I had moved out and moved home. I knew it was the right decision. I knew he had been cheating on me a lot. I tried to look the other way, pretend it wasn't happening, but there were just too many signs. I still loved him when I left. *side note-he has a daughter now. I hope he feels like a jerk
Anyway, that morning I was talking on the phone to one of my very best friends. She told me that HE had confirmed slept with a girl. my friend. We were broken up, I was miles away, but man... It hurt so bad. I felt sucker punched. I threw up. I wanted to die. I couldn't believe she or he could do that a week after I left. I couldn't eat, couldn't go out, couldn't talk to anyone. I was totally destroyed.
Okay-have I set the stage for you? Good.
It was some random night. My twin sister was out at some cool "under twenty one" club. I opted to stay home. I wanted to be miserable, to cry, and to sit on the couch. My mom was flipping through the TV.
"Fleetwood Mac is back together!' she started yelling at my dad. A Fleetwood Mac concert special was on MTV or VH1-I can't remember which. My dad walks in. " I had the Buckingham Nicks record when I was younger. I should have kept it." I had no idea what he was talking about, and I really didn't care. I had always liked Stevie Nicks in a very casual fanlike manner. Dreams, Landslide. Yay. I knew the songs everyone else knew and that was about it.
Actually, at that time in my life, I was mostly into musical theater, although I did get into Alanis, Fiona Apple, and Jewel two years before-but mostly classic rock was not on my radar at all. ( Um, except for the Beatles and David Bowie, because my mom was totally obsessed with David Bowie). But whatever. Fleetwood Mac Sheetwood Flack was how I mostly felt about them.
"Well, I have nothing better to do," I remember thinking, and sat down on the couch.
Actually, I totally don't remember thinking that at all-but I decided to watch the concert with my mom, so what the fuck else could I have been thinkingt? And also that makes the story flow a little easier, so yeah...
Well, I have nothing better to do. I plopped down on the couch.
"Wow Stevie looks great! OMG the biggest soap opera in rock history blah blah blah blah" my mom is going on and on about Fleetwood Mac. "Lindsey is the most underrated guitarist EVERRRR"
Um, how the hell does she know about guitar playing talent? I was mystified.
And also interested. "The Chain" was the first song. I liked it-it was familiar. "Dreams was next" okay, I like this song too. I had always wanted to be in a band anyway, I was liking the harmonies...humm...could be interesting.
Christine McVie song...um...okay...time to take a piss.
I'm back! Rhiannon, Go Insane, Big Love-um...cool! I think I could like Fleetwood Mac.
Landslide. My mom is like sobbing "THEY USED TO BE SO INLOVE!" ( for those not in the know...um..never mind. If you don't know the story of Fleetwood Mac, you probably aren't reading my post.
Then IT happened. THE song.
You could be my silver springs...blue green colors flashing....
I could be your only dream...your shining autumn ocean crashing...
Humm..what is this song? I have never heard it before. Silver Springs? I like the visual.
Did you say she was pretty? Did you say she loved you? Baby i don't want to know...
I seriously couldn't breath. My break up...the cheating...my heartache...how was this song describing me? Like, exactly describing my feelings?
I'll follow you down 'till the sound of my voice will haunt you, you'll never get away from the sound of the woman who loves you...
I was a singer. These lyrics hit home. I wrote songs about him ( um that no one ever heard). What the fuck?
I seriously almost fell of the couch. I was like in some kind of crazy trance. I wanted to scream and cry and OMG LOOK HOW THEY ARE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER! Lindsey Buckingham and Stevie Nicks! Singing to each other and giving each other the side eye! omg they HATE each other! But I could still see that they probably wouldn't be upset if they wound up in bed together. AHHHH! WHAT IS THIS SONG?
I'm like attacking my mom with questions and she was vague.
"Humm..I think it was a B-side or something"
So anyway I was totally "knocked out" as La Nicks likes to say. The internet was just, like, a thing, so you know I couldn't just google "the making of Silver Springs". I forget-I think I went to a Fleetwood Mac website. Nothing on Silver Springs, but I was learning a lot about the band.
I went to a record store the next day, I forget which one, but I bought the Fleetwood Mac White Album, and Rumours. Maybe "Silver Springs" had a different name on the record? I was determined to hear the original version of the song. I HAD to hear it . I HAD TO PEOPLE DO YOU HEAR ME??!!
I played both records back to back that day, and after I heard "Gold Dust Woman" it was like FORGET IT. I becaume obsessed with everything Stevie Nicks, Fleetwood Mac, and Rock and Roll of the 60's and 70's.
So Happy Anniversary to me.
PS-I finally hear the original Silver Springs while I was going to the bathroom in Denny's at 3AM after like a 24 hour bender. It was so awesome.